I am very sad today to say that we lost another puppy last evening. And the depth of sadness is so incrediably deep! Not just for me but for my lovely daughter. I think I hurt more for her than anyone. She has been an amazing midwife to Roxie, reading everything she could get her hands on making sure everything was done just right for both Mama and babies! When you care so deeply you experience the highs and lows of the situation so much more. She has always had a heart for animals, especially the weak fragile ones.
Leanna is my only daughter and mother to all of my grandchildren. To say that I am extremely proud of her is a huge understatement! She is not only my daughter but my closest friend and biggest supporter. I know she always has my back and will love me no matter what foolish thing I do.
We have walked hand in hand through some pretty tough times. We have cried together, and certainly laughed together. We have fought with each other and for each other. We respect each other and dare anyone to disrespect either one of us with the other present.
The amazing thing is, whatever is going on, good, bad or indifferent, we have the joy of knowing we have each other.
We have shared a gambit of emotions the past couple of days. First total and complete excitement at the prospect of the birth of the puppies. When the pangs of labor hit we were more than a little excited, we were over the moon!! When it became apparent the birth was not going according to plan panic set in quickly. Still never dreaming it would go so wrong. When the first puppy passed away the overwhelming sadness saturated the room. And when at last the final two puppies were delivered the joy was unmistakable!! Finally, bringing Roxie and the babies home, even with the loss of Buster, joy was the name of the game.
Now with the loss of Triton sadness threatens to take the joy once again. We must look at the big picture and practice the glass is half full theory. No matter what is gone there is more left behind. More joy to come, more puppies, more love, more living. Even with sadness in the midst of joy life IS good!!! Live it!!! Live it fully!!
