Time to put my life back together! I know what I want. But to be honest that's about all I know for certain. I need to gather the pieces of my life and put the picture in my head together so my life can make sense again. In essence I am putting the puzzle of my life back together.
I have to take pieces from the depths of despair, from my head and heart, from lessons learned, from past mistakes and from my dreams and somehow connect them together to make my future. And not just any future, not a future filled with the same unrealized, unmet hopes but a real future with love, happiness and that deep peace that I so quest after.
Every life event that I have experienced has had an affect on my thoughts, my heart and my life. Some events have made me stronger, some I have learned valuable lessons from, some taught me things I need to remember and some have taught me I need to let go of certain things. If placed into the puzzle correctly even the most horrid experiences can help complete a wonderful, fulfilling, bright future. I need to remember that in order to write my entire book I have to live each chapter. I have to complete the puzzle to see in detail the whole picture. I cannot throw away the pieces that were painful or hurtful. I cannot throw away the pieces that are hard to face because of guilt or anger. All those pieces are necessary because they made me who I am and even with imperfections I am amazing and wonderful and deserving and belong in the completed work of art which is my life!
I have hope now that the scattered pieces of my existence can and will be placed back together with meaning and purpose so that I can, not only see my future, but participate wholeheartedly and enthusiastically in making it the life I truly want. My life, that I will live out and enjoy with all that I have! My life to live my way!!
