Sometimes I am too excited to be patient. And often when I am impatient I lose my mind!
It is not always big things that I get excited about, more often than not they are small things. They just make me happy.
Waiting is NOT my strong suit! I am one of those that wakes my kids up on Christmas morning long before the rooster crows because I am too excited to wait any longer! I get dressed to go out hours early because I cant' wait to go! If I am going to travel I pack weeks ahead of time! If I have early morning plans I don't sleep the night before! And if I have plans with my special someone I get sick to my stomach with excitement! Face it....I'm not normal.
Right now I have two special things coming up and I am beside myself. Try as I may I cannot contain my excitement and managing my time has become very difficult. Both events are things that are a bit of a secret and that adds to the excitement! But it also adds to my frustration. You see not everyone would be excited for me or share my enthusiasm. Some people cannot know until it actually happens and some could care less, while others may think me crazy and still others would not like it at all. Therefore I just kind of keep it to myself. That is difficult for me as I am a pretty open person. When I am bubbling over with anticipation it is extremely hard for me not to share. This is a tough spot for me. I want to tell the world what I'm up to but ....I know better. LOL
So filling my time becomes a huge challenge. As I am not working I have way too much time on my hands. I am trying to spend a lot of time with my grandsons. I am watching a lot of movies, listen to music I like and even reading a little (now that I have finished all the Shades Of Gray books not so much.)
It is cold out which is my excuse for not getting out and walking, however I have a treadmill right here that I need to use. Maybe today I will do that. I am going to try hard to get back into the normal swing of my life and quit daydreaming and actually accomplish something. If I don't I will find myself worn out before I even begin my adventure. LOL!
Life is good, only getting better and I am impatient to LIVE it NOW!!!
