I hate gray days!! Especially when it matches my mood. Yep, I'm having one of those days. One of those days that it the earth opened up and swallowed me I would ever so grateful! Staying in bed and pulling the covers over my head isn't helping at all! Being broke I can't even afford to go on a junk food eating binge. So here I am, letting the words out, probably going to regret it when I read this in a few days but....FML!!!! The problem is I have no life. And it's my own damn fault!! Calling on my will power to handle a situation and finding I am powerless is pissing me off!!
My old standby of running is out of the question. Harming myself is WAY out of the question!! So I have no choice but to man up, make some extremely hard decisions, quit crying and daydreaming, STOP listening to my depraved heart and figure out what the hell it is I want!! I need to take a stand and fight. I need to quit being a needy whiny woman and set some boundaries and deadlines. And most of all I need to stick to them.
I am tired of my head saying you can do this, you deserve that and my heart making me feel like a helpless twit! Love should not hurt this bad.
