Some days are definitely better than others and today is one of those! I'm certain that all of us have very specific things that make us happy. Not one thing but many things that bring us personal satisfaction and joy. This happiness can come from people, places, things and actions. It can be complicated or quite simple.
Today I got to spend several hours with someone who brings me such happiness and joy. Someone who lights up my world with his smile, especially if I am the one who puts the smile on his lips. I don't get to spend anywhere near as much time with him as I would like so every moment I do have with him is precious.
I am one of those women who absolutely love to do things for her man, I know weird. Few things bring me as much enjoyment as making my special one feel just how special he is to me. If I can prepare him a special meal, give him a relaxing massage or just sit near him as he watches his favorite TV show (even when it bores me half to death) I am in 7th heaven! If I can share a private joke, a secret touch or a passionate kiss I am wildly happy! Laughing with him, having him hold my hand or looking into each other eyes allows me to experience joy beyond measure.
So today was an amazing day for me! I have a man in my life that makes me a little crazy at times (and I probably make him that way too from time to time). There are no guarantees in life and I am well aware of this. So for the time being I am going to let this man hold on to my heart, trusting him not to break it and love him in return.
Once I heard a line in a movie (Steel Magnolias) that said "I would rather have 10 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special", and that is what I have right now, someone wonderful and special.
Today I had those moments of laughter, private jokes (broken furniture), holding hands, sharing kisses and looking into each others eyes! Today I am so very very happy!
Life is good! Live it!!
Friday, June 15, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Eat the Meat and Spit out the Bones
You have to love your friends and family. After all they love YOU!
No matter where you are or what you are doing well-meaning family and friends are full of advice, and will offer it whether you need it or not. They are trying to look out after your well being in most cases. The biggest problem with this is; there are so many of them!
When I am already confused and unsure too much, or even sometimes "any", advice just compounds my confusion. And some of the suggestions are, let's face it, totally and complete useless!
The trick here is to simply use what you need and ignore what you don't. Don't take it personal, none of the advice and opinions expressed are aimed at hurting your feelings, although it sometimes does. Take it in the spirit given.
It is easy for those not currently walking in your circumstances to clearly see the answers, they think. They will say, "Well if I were you I would do this or that". Are they sure?
I am a "heart" person not a "head" person. Therefore if a "head" person is giving me advice I will seldom understand their way of thinking. And on the same hand they don't have a clue what I'm feeling. But...they love me and want to help.
The whole point here is to allow people to offer what they consider sound advice. Know in you heart that they are only trying to help. Even if it's far out in left field they feel they have shown you how much they care and understand. And sometimes they actually have given you some little tidbit that hits a chord. Some little glimmer of hope to keep you going forward in you journey.
I love my family and friends and wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't have them in my corner rooting me on. I am glad I had a wonderful pastor in my life that gave me the sound advice to eat the meat and spit out the bones. Thank you Pastor Dennis Kingsland for the best advice I ever received.
Life is good! Keep on living it!
No matter where you are or what you are doing well-meaning family and friends are full of advice, and will offer it whether you need it or not. They are trying to look out after your well being in most cases. The biggest problem with this is; there are so many of them!
When I am already confused and unsure too much, or even sometimes "any", advice just compounds my confusion. And some of the suggestions are, let's face it, totally and complete useless!
The trick here is to simply use what you need and ignore what you don't. Don't take it personal, none of the advice and opinions expressed are aimed at hurting your feelings, although it sometimes does. Take it in the spirit given.
It is easy for those not currently walking in your circumstances to clearly see the answers, they think. They will say, "Well if I were you I would do this or that". Are they sure?
I am a "heart" person not a "head" person. Therefore if a "head" person is giving me advice I will seldom understand their way of thinking. And on the same hand they don't have a clue what I'm feeling. But...they love me and want to help.
The whole point here is to allow people to offer what they consider sound advice. Know in you heart that they are only trying to help. Even if it's far out in left field they feel they have shown you how much they care and understand. And sometimes they actually have given you some little tidbit that hits a chord. Some little glimmer of hope to keep you going forward in you journey.
I love my family and friends and wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't have them in my corner rooting me on. I am glad I had a wonderful pastor in my life that gave me the sound advice to eat the meat and spit out the bones. Thank you Pastor Dennis Kingsland for the best advice I ever received.
Life is good! Keep on living it!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Little Miracles
If I have learned anything that has taken the 1st place spot in things learned it is that sometimes we have to actually LOOK for something miraculous. The tiny miracles that we take for granted are sometimes invisible.
Night before last I got the news from a dear friend that her little 1 year old niece may have leukemia. I can not imagine how devastated that entire family must be! I went to bed with this on my mind. Yesterday morning when I awoke I had a vague memory of a dream from the night before. As I lay there the dream came back to me; Matthew was playing with a baby... the very same baby I just mentioned. He had cake all over his face! As he leaned into the baby she would try to feed Matthew a piece of cake and he would move his face from side to side smearing more sticky cake frosting on his face. The baby was belly-laughing hysterically! As I mulled this over in my mind a smile came to my lips. I understood what the dream meant.
I got up and went straight to my phone. I sent a simple text to my friend....."Matthew is watching over Brandi". What a wonderful miracle, an unfathomable gift knowing that my dear sweet loving husband is still caring for my loved ones.
Life is good, keep on living it!!!
Night before last I got the news from a dear friend that her little 1 year old niece may have leukemia. I can not imagine how devastated that entire family must be! I went to bed with this on my mind. Yesterday morning when I awoke I had a vague memory of a dream from the night before. As I lay there the dream came back to me; Matthew was playing with a baby... the very same baby I just mentioned. He had cake all over his face! As he leaned into the baby she would try to feed Matthew a piece of cake and he would move his face from side to side smearing more sticky cake frosting on his face. The baby was belly-laughing hysterically! As I mulled this over in my mind a smile came to my lips. I understood what the dream meant.
I got up and went straight to my phone. I sent a simple text to my friend....."Matthew is watching over Brandi". What a wonderful miracle, an unfathomable gift knowing that my dear sweet loving husband is still caring for my loved ones.
Life is good, keep on living it!!!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
How It Began
Okay..so here I am. Living life alone and learning that it's okay. Never thought I would be living alone. There is a first time for everything I suppose. There are good things about living alone (although I had to really look for good points at first). When I buy something to eat and go back to get it......it's still there!! No one makes a mess for me to clean up.....except ME!! When I can't find something I KNOW it has to be here somewhere cause no one else moved it but.....you got it....ME!
But I am getting ahead of myself. Just how did I end up here, all alone?
Long story short, I was living life, had finally reached the point where all my children were pretty much grown (well they could take care of themselves). My wonderful husband, Matthew, of just under 20 yrs, and I were enjoying a bit of freedom from parenting and starting to spend more time focusing on each other. On evening in January 2010 my life became unrecognizable. My adoring husband suffered a stroke and 4 days later I was a widow. It's all a blur really. A dream that plays over and over in my mind. The outcome is always the same. The pain has lessened but will never be completely absent.
Some how I had to go on, to move forward, to learn to live again. Has it been easy? NO! But I have learned so much and know that my journey is far from over. The joys of life so far outweigh the sorrows.
Take a journey with me, see how funny and inventive life can be. Sometimes when we see things from another person's point of view it makes more sense.
But I am getting ahead of myself. Just how did I end up here, all alone?
Long story short, I was living life, had finally reached the point where all my children were pretty much grown (well they could take care of themselves). My wonderful husband, Matthew, of just under 20 yrs, and I were enjoying a bit of freedom from parenting and starting to spend more time focusing on each other. On evening in January 2010 my life became unrecognizable. My adoring husband suffered a stroke and 4 days later I was a widow. It's all a blur really. A dream that plays over and over in my mind. The outcome is always the same. The pain has lessened but will never be completely absent.
Some how I had to go on, to move forward, to learn to live again. Has it been easy? NO! But I have learned so much and know that my journey is far from over. The joys of life so far outweigh the sorrows.
Take a journey with me, see how funny and inventive life can be. Sometimes when we see things from another person's point of view it makes more sense.
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